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(no subject) [Dec. 21st, 2004|10:18 am]
[mood |morosemorose]
[music |if you come back [blue]]

Recycling essays is the way to go. I'm leaving the house in 2 hours time but meanwhile I'm forcing myself to just write one more essay. Which I didn't have to because my PSC essay fits perfectly for the Boston one. I think. I hope it's not slightly off. Well, I'm kinda nervous about work later on. Sometimes you want to be alone and have some me time, but this time you definitely want somebody familiar to be there with you.

I slept very deep last night, dreams and all, as compared to the insomnia I faced the previous night. Only thing that was disruptive was the itchiness I felt early this morning-I just changed the sheets so it can't be bedbugs. Maybe mosquitoes...but I've developed a knack of successfully swiping them.

It's so unsettling-I should be doing something productive right now, but for the life of me I can't fathom what. I think I'll just go read-picked up The Truth about Forever by Sarah Dessen that day, and so far it's quite good.
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(no subject) [Oct. 19th, 2003|10:12 pm]
[mood |amusedamused]

I am very very full.

Spillover effects from yesterday's dinner, pastries for brekkie, pad thai with chicken(thai fried noodles) followed by the smoothest chendol at a thai restaurant during lunch, my mother's kueh for tea, and yong tau fu for dinner.

And presently satisfying my chocolate cravings with a Cadbury Mini Roll. My chocolate cravings often emerge whenever it's that time of the month.

I am feeling a bitty better after taking a shower and relaxing.

Arghhhh I give up uploading photos.
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(no subject) [Jun. 27th, 2003|10:49 pm]
[mood |hungryhungry]

arh this is bad. i have been spending the past few nights watching wimbledon while studying. not good. :/ everyone of my schoolmates seem to be offline today. i shan't stay up late tonight...it just gives me a bad headache and i end up waking really late the next day.

i love jay chou's voice. *lol*

the great singapore sale ends next week. drats. i haven't made any 'quality buys' this year. save for the mango tops. bcbg had some nice stuff but not in my size, unfortunately. i left a sample of 'chance' in my bag and now everything that goes into it comes out smelling really lovely...enough to make me want to get it. =P the other day i got a small bottle of lancome's connexion-smells fruity with a hint of vanilla. hmm. normally i am turned off by vanilla-ish scents but not so this one.
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monte carlo [Jun. 1st, 2003|10:11 pm]
[mood |busybusy]

I just finished watching the Monaco Grand Prix.
Uhhh JP Montoya won...Schumi was third. =(
This is prolly my favourite race circuit besides Austria.
At first I only saw Prince Rainier, Princess Caroline, Prince Ernst and Andrea, but at the end Pierre and Charlotte joined them. Well I was kinda eager to see what she wore this year but unfortunately the camera didn't focus on her enough. She let her hair down this year(if I saw correctly) and it was held back by some white headband/scarf(?). Then she wore a black shirtdress/coat(?)with a white top underneath(again, ?), white slacks and white sandals. Caroline was chic as usual in this nice suit and shades. Hahaha I shall stop describing because I'm getting to be really bad at it. *lol* Hope you guys caught it too...then maybe you could describe better than me!
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question [May. 7th, 2003|10:07 pm]
[mood |worriedworried]
[music |'i will always love you' whitney houston]

Is there any way in which I can make this journal private?

Now that it's friends only...I figured if someone I didn't want to see this was a friend of a friend they'd still be able to view it, no?
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happy heart [May. 7th, 2003|09:26 pm]
[mood |trying to stay calm]
[music |give me you-mary j blige]

I'm in better spirits.

It must have been going to Orchard that did the trick, even though I went out with new people today and ended up with nothing.

I have no idea what to get Mum and Grandma for Mother's Day.

Oh yes the civics rep asked me to be the economics rep...haha.

I'm signing up for another scholarship, I hope they don't get put off by my bad CCA grade. Hey, I was cheated. It should have been a B grade not a pathetic C. *crosses fingers and prays hard for an interview* This scholarship doesn't give you money, all it does is basically, give you a nice portfolio for your university application cuz they'll give you leadership roles and get you to organise certain events...I'm not too clear but it's somewhere along that line.

I feel like I've been 'dissected'. You know how sometimes when you meet new people they tend to scrutinise you closely. They said that I:
a) have big eyes, one's jealous of my double eyelids, heh.
b) am very 'gu-niang'. Heh I choose to take this as a compliment, isn't it nice being feminine?
c) am an Oriental beauty. Wtf?! I don't have porcelain skin, I'm only 5'5 and I'm underweight. That is so not...orientally beautiful.

In the end we split up and I went to Kino with two others, then after that one left and this other girl and I went to shop for a bit. We basically just went to FCUK, Warehouse and Bebe and let's just say I can't wait for the Great Singapore Sale to start on May 30!

Tomorrow I'll be having my 4x100m relay heats. I know I signed up for it...I just don't know who I'm running with, or whether I'm running at all-argh.
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feels like i'm starting again [May. 5th, 2003|09:41 pm]
[mood |crappycrappy]
[music |'ai' karen mok]

It's such a small world.

Therefore I had no choice but to make this journal friends-only.

I had a bad day at school today.

I'm going to post a journal over at DLand about it. I know it's friends-only...but I'm trying to deal with the fact that I came this close to having my private life exposed to everyone else.

Maybe not today, because I should be studying.

I miss my friends so much.

Part of what I'm feeling today is due to PMS.

I've been trying to hold back the tears what with everything that's happening, perhaps I shouldn't. I keep on thinking that it's like...a sign of weakness on my part. Like, how can I let all this get to me?

I hope everything works out for the best.
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she will have her way [May. 4th, 2003|10:10 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |'she will' neil finn-a great song]

I took Gigi's advice and chatted with my mother.

She told me that she's been having insomnia and she's had alot on her mind lately, having to come to terms with the fact that she's got high blood pressures. Oh yes and Nick's teacher insisted on coming over to our place because his grades have been slipping. Fuck him. He never tries.

My mother was really upset tonight over this-she's gone to rest early. Nick asked me for some help in math but he always ends up wanting the answers not the methods and he's always so impatient. So anyway he's managed to put everyone in the house in a bad mood after his teacher's visit.

I haven't had time to study tonight after helping him...oh geez we are so going to be grilled by Miss Ng during history and I haven't read her lecture notes yet.
Kenneth went back to Perth 3 days early and I didn't get to say goodbye. =( He's got to be quarantined for 10 days. God bless him-the soft chewy nougats he brought back are great stress relievers. Harhar.

Hurray for Michael Schumacher & Ferrari! I was so pleased to hear he won the Spanish Grand Prix. =)
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closer to myself [May. 3rd, 2003|10:49 pm]
[mood |worriedworried]
[music |'when i'm missing you' a1]

I watched too much television, drank too much tea and ate too many M&M's.

There were just too much good stuff on cable today. I watched 'Men of Honor'-it was very inspiring and I think Cuba Gooding Jr. acts very well too, some Discovery Travel, my Buffy tape, the season finale of Felicity(again, will I ever stop, no) and of course, Man Utd. VS Charlton. It was a good match, but they could have done better. I had to tone down my cheering a bit cuz Mum was right next to me the whole time and at halftime she told me I needed to go do my work. :/

I'm freaked out about something. I'm very worried about it, in fact and I don't know what to make of it. Today my mother came into my room, sat on my bed and started reminiscing about the past out of nowhere. Granted, she does it sometimes but it was so out of the blue today. She was remembering how Jules and I(born about a month apart) were learning to walk. It made me a bit sad cuz of course I miss Jules. Then later while she was flipping through some cookbook she said 'if I die you may not get alot of money but you'll get a whole lot of recipe books'.

During the match she was on the phone with her friend discussing something about public nomination forms and trustees. OK I am sketchy about this nomination form thing, but it's basically nominating someone who gets your money from the Central Provident Fund after you die. Correct me if I'm wrong. It's somewhere along that line. She went on to say she didn't want to leave the money to Dad(he is bad with money), that she wanted it to go to her children instead. She asked about the age limit(at least 18) for nominations and a few other things I couldn't hear.

Whatever it is, my imagination must be working overtime. It's just...the continuous references to death. Or am I being a paranoid android. I'm just fraught with worry right now and it's driving me close to tears. Surely nothing bad is happening/going to happen? *breathes*

I wish I had someone to talk to right now.
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